I know the peices fit, cause I watched them fall away...

I don't know what my problem is, but I've had Tool songs stuck in my head for like the last 2 weeks. Maybe I'm just goin nuts, hope that's all...
Anyway, been a strange weekend. Had a pretty nice Ice Storm as i'm sure you all know. I had tons of fun walkin around in that! (Please note my sarcasm)
Spent the night Saturday with Eric and Valerie at Val's folk's house, and her mom fed us. I love good home cooked meals. Val's mom is awesome. Spaghetti for dinner, and blueberry pancakes for breakfast this mornin, while we watched Die Hard. That was funny, Val's mom suggested we throw in a movie with Breakfast, and suggested Die Hard cause it was "christmasy". Eric, Val, and I hung out for a little while today before poker, which was fun cause it had been a while since we'd just "hung out" with no real purpose or "thing to do". Don't know what my deal is with the quoth unquoths today, but I guess they're necessary for the telling. I guess i'm just being random, much like my weekend...
Played poker tonight and got my arse handed to me. Lost 15 bucks. It was probably the worst game i've played in a long time. I just wasn't feelin' it I guess, and then i got frustrated.
No classes tomorrow, but work all day which is ok cause I enjoy what I do for the most part. Working in the writing center usually turns out to be 80% rewarding and 20% frustration that turns into bitching that turns into humor, that turns into rewards. So its all worth it in the end.
Matt is supposed to get a side poker game up and running sometime soon which I'd like to join, cause I think i'd do well. Hopefully that will come through. (Like playing once a week doesn't already kill me.)
My game went great on Thursday. Eric and Travis are quite a duo, and seemed to enjoy my set up immensly. For more specific details, ask them, cause i'm keepin my mouth shut about it right now. They're in the middle of a mission, and I have a tendency to say too much post game, and potentially spoil the future.
On a final note, I'm really excited cause the majority of the books I ordered off Ebay arrived last week, and they all go to furthering my already extensive Star Wars book collection. I am still awaiting the arrival of two novels, but I have the beginning ones in the New Jedi order series now, and am going to start reading those in sequential order. There's 19 of em, so its gonna be a casual thing that's probably gonna take the rest of the semester to finish, but it is well worth it.
Oh, and Tota's birthday is Thursday, which I'm also highly looking forward to. No hints will be found here as to what I got her though! But, I don't think she'll be disappointed....

Anyway, that's it for me, list is all that's left right?

Movie: Die Hard (Any other choice there?)
Book: Vector Prime by RA Salvatore
Album: Lost Highway Soundtrack
Song: Schism by Tool
TV Show: Home Movies
Website: www.google.com


-Bren Out

These are the sounds of Silence.

Ok, stealing this Soundtrack idea from Will. Here's 30 random song lyrics from my Jukebox. Try to guess the titles and songs. Good luck, and may the force be with you. (BTW, no cheating!!!)

1. "Things are getting worse, but I feel alot better. And that's all that really matters to...me."
-Amy Hit the Atmosphere, The Counting Crows

2. "No is the saddest experience you'll ever know..."
-One, Three Dog Night (Amy Got this one right)

3. "Baby, baby, there you stand, with your little head down in your hands."
-Wasted Time, The Eagles

4. "So you thought you might like to go to the show, to feel the warmth..."
-In The Flesh, Pink Floyd

5. "Peaceful loving youth against the brutality, of plastic existance..."
-Deer Dance, System of A Down

6. "We can circle around like hurricanes, and dance and dream like lovers..."
-Force Ten, Rush

7. "Now i'm here to stay. Love can be so boring. Nothing's quite the same now..."
-Best I Ever Had, Vertical Horizon

8. "And all you touch, and all you see, is all your life will ever be..."
-Breathe, Pink Floyd

9. "And I got a hole in me now...Yeah, I got a scar I can talk about..."
-Bright Lights, Matchbox Twenty (Tota got this one first)

10. "I was think in if you were lonely, maybe we could leave here and no one would know..."
-Back 2 Good, Matchbox Twenty

11. "I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends..."
-When I'm Gone, Three Doors Down (Amy got it)

12. "Steal the life that's inside of me. Sit and drink Crown Royal tea..."
Pennyroyal Tea, Nirvana

13. "Think for yourself, question authority, think for yourself, question authority."
-Third Eye (Live), Tool

14. "First day of school and i'm already failin'..."
-Grade 9, Bare Naked Ladies

15. "And if I don't make it, know that I loved you all along..."
-4:00am, Our Lady Peace

16. "Now wait a minute mister, I didn't even kiss her. Don't want no trouble from you..."
-Gimme Three Steps, Lynyrd Skynyrd

17. "She had nothin left to say, so she said she loved me..."
-Lost Horizons, Gin Blossoms

18. "I close my eyes, only for a moment and the moment's gone..."
-Dust In The Wind, Kansas

19. "So the answer gets harder, harder...and the truth's gettin farther and farther..."
-Seven Caged Tigers, Stone Temple Pilots

20. "Singin in the sunshine, laughin in the rain. Hittin on the moonshine, rockin in the grain.."
-The Ocean, Led Zeppelin

21. "But if you want money for people with minds that hate. All I can tell you is brother you have to wait..."
-Revolution, The Beatles (Amy Again!)

22. "Oh why can't I be makin' love come true? I'm beat, beet red..."
-Tired of Sex- Weezer (Tota/Amy)

23. "At the last minute, I threw it away because I didn't think you'd read it anyway."
-What Have I Got To Lose, Blessed Union of Souls

24. "Then I think the music is too loud. By then I've lived another broken story to let me out..."
-Hold Me Down, Gin Blossoms

25. "I can't stay, tomorrow I"ll be on my way. So don't expect to find me sleeping in my bed..."
-I Wont Be There, Simple Plan

26. "Close your eyes girl, look inside girl, let the sun take you away..."
-Magic Carpet Ride, Steppenwolf (Amy)

27. "All five horizons, revolved around her soul, as the earth to the sun..."
-Black, Pearl Jam

28. "From Soho down to Brighton, I must have played them all..."
-Pinball Wizard, The Who

29. "Don't talk of worlds that never were. The end is all that's ever true. There's nothing you can ever say..."
-Burn, The Cure

30. "Are you waking up slowly, nothing but lonely? Are you waking up holding, holding your breath?..."
-Story About A Girl, Our Lady Peace

Ok, that's it.

-Bren

So my, my this here Anakin guy. Maybe Vader someday later, now he's just a small fry.

Left his home, kissed his mommy good-bye, saying "soon I'm gonna be a Jedi!" Anyway, that's weird Al, the Saga begins..
Just got back from roleplayin, and had to post a quick game related list. Results of the music challenge will be up tomorrow or Saturday, whenever I get around to it...
Anyway, geek list:

Movie: The Village, M. Night S
CD: Twelve Monkeys Soundtrack
TV Show: The X-Files
Book: Jedi Academy II: Dark Apprentice
Quote: "So be it...Jedi!"

Anyway, sleep overwhelms me now. Ironic considering I've just had 5 gallons of coffe at Ye Olde Huddle House. The end is nigh, may the force be with you all.

-Bren

I'm not crazy, i'm just a little unvwell. I know, that right now you can't tell.

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see, a different side of me. Anyway. Don't know why, but I just felt the need to blog though i've got nothin to say. Perhaps this is just becoming a routine in my subconscious, and when I don't update, I feel a loss of some sort. Strange this is, look into this further, I shall.
Well, I could atleast hammer out a list since I haven't done that in a good bit.

Movie: Star Wars, Episode IV: A New Hope
Music: Tool, Salival
Game: ZOMBIES!!!
Quote: "We are the all singing, all dancing crap of the universe" -Fight Club

Guess I'll post a poem since I haven't done that in a while either....

Ephemeral

One.

You don’t edit a poem, you mold it. It sticks
to your ribs and kicks you. Forces you
to hold its whisping breath between your toes.
Have you ever loved and hated yourself,
at the same time? You begin and end
an entire lifespan on one frozen stitch of time.
What if time travel really were possible?
How would you deal with the lines?
The waiting.
The howling.
The congruency of nature.
The robotic hymns.
The crumbling social order of circles.
The rise and fall of acorns in the ocean.
The obscurity of coffee spilling morons with
Trenchcoats and dark visages. With their
Insecurities, and yet, self-loathing arrogance.
Nothing ever changes in this timeline.



Two.

I can piss myself off just fine, thank you.
How was your trip to the sun? Did you
See me watching as you left?
It’s ok, I won’t tell anyone.
Who’s left to tell once everyone has read
Their New York Times, and had their daily
High-ball. There’s no great mystery to life my
Friend, so fucking get over it.
All life is a series of moments,
At least that’s what I keep telling myself.



Well, that's it for now. Maybe more soon.

-Bren

I can see through you, see to the real you...

You are a Fork.
You are special, unique... and shiny.... but you just don't know it. Many admire you for your outward appearance, but you haven't truly expressed all of the great stuff inside of you. You have the potential to do great things and help others, and this will help you in the future. When you hold a grudge at someone, however, this can be dangerous. Despite your calmness that most people perceive about you, you keep a lot of feelings bottled up inside that one day can make you explode and stab something. Instead of resorting to that, you can just say, "Go Fork Yourself!"Most compatible with: Knife, and Sock.

-Bren

Something so incredible, DEATH STAR!! Something unbelievable, DEATH STAR!!!

Ok, so that's from a Presidents of the United States of America song, appropriately titled, Death Star. Anyway...I'm in the pre-planning stages for a major revamp of my Star Wars Roleplaying game after a lapse in playing. I'm so friggin excited about some of these ideas going through my head, but i got noone to talk to them about who will understand them. (besides people who are in the game.) I'd write them out here, but I don't want the info falling into the wrong hands. Wow, one reason to open a secret blog I guess. Nah, I'll suffer and be ok. I spent ab0ut 3 hours tonight talking to Eric about his new character, and getting his feedback and ideas on the campaign thus far. He's good for giving me ideas, but then I can't state them as they pop in my head, because he can't know what i'm thinking. However, as usual, they're all screwed. BWAHAHAHAHAH! And no, the plans have nothing to do with a Death Star, however incredible that would be. My game is set during the Clone Wars, and everything is leading directly up to May when Episode III comes out, and the empire riiiiiiises into existance. Man, its gonna be so lame, but awesome at the same time. Anyway, I should shut up now for fear of saying to much.
Anyway, things are going well over all. Have chemistry, radio production, and Jap. Cinema today starting at 9:30am. It's almost too late for me to go to bed, so I'm not sure if I will. Going on no sleep the first day of class shouldnt suck that much. I may sleep between Radio and Japanese Cinema so that I'm not totally dead for that. I'll probably skip Karaoke this week though. It doesn't look like anybody is gonna go. Eric is broke, and Dana and Paul are working early wed. morning. So I'll go ahead and post a weekly list now just in case.

Book: Survivor's Quest by Timothy Zahn
Song: Ready, Steady, Go by Meices
Album: Gordon Bare Naked Ladies
Movie: Rounders
Quote: "Real peace is not just the absence of conflict, but the presence of justice."

May the force be with you.

-Bren

Lately, I can't breathe. Waiting. They're chasing me. No one listens, but I'm okay with it.

Went to huddle, this is what came out of it:

Letter to the editor

He perches high upon the cat walk,
his body chilled with both fear and excitement.
His hands twist, grasping nothing and everything
in anticipation of the birds of prey.
His mind soars past them with a flurry of blows,
breaking their nearly flawless and enchanting formation.
Time slows, spinning beneath him
as he finally comes to rest upon the stars. He holds,
his breath tight in fear of his mind's implosion.
But, the moment holds, and he is allowed to linger.

Waking Dreams flutter and fade.
The blue smoke however, clings to the page
upon which he writes his first and last confession.
Rythmically, his soul bursts forth,
ignoring the strong smell of burnt flesh and cheap whiskey.
It leaps higher, over the shark tank that lays far below
awaiting the third act.
The vacum of space tears the page from his grasp,
and it reads the following:
"Naivety is the root of faith,
and courage the root of loss.
Explanation begets confusion which
begets instability.
Instability does not always lead to evil.
Instanbility breeds individualism
which sparks creativity, which
leads to humanism. And, to be
Human, is to be real.
Ah, but the fake ones! They
are the tricky ones. For they create
the instability in the first place..
It is not always easy to be human,
but it is a Hell of a lot easier to be fake.
If only people were as easy to read
as lines on a page."


-Two songs tonight for you: Competition Smile by the Gin Blossoms and High by The Cure

Good night and have a pleasant tomorrow.

-Bren

Drinkin champagne, feelin no pain till early mornin...

That's from an old whiny George Strait song. Anyway, finally back at the dorm with my prrresscioussss computer. Man its been a wild last week and a half. New Years Eve was one of the best nights of my life. Its not every evening you get to help you're good friends blow up a christmas tree. And man, that was friggin AWESOME!!! I didn't even realize what time it was when me, tota, eric, and val finally went to bed. Was told that it was some time around 630am. it did not feel like it. Jenny and Allan throw the best parties.
Anyway, The next night I cleaned up at poker. And then two nights later dropped 15 bucks to Eric in a short game.
Tuesday was only a quick stop in at Karaoke. Noone was really feeling up to it. We left by like 1030. But here's the list anyway:

Amarillo by Morning- George Strait
Everyday- Bon Jovi
With Arms Wide Open- Creed

I dont have class until Tuesday. I lucked out with my schedule and dont have Monday or Friday Classes.
I've been writing alot. Here's just one from last week. I've been getting pretty lucky with inspiration the last couple weeks. Hope I can keep it up.

Man Of Steel

Why Does wearing a Clark Kent shirt make me feel like Superman?
How'd you figure out my secret identity?
Was it my bad eye-sight, or my passion for flannel?
Maybe it's just the way I can suddenly disappear
as soon as conflict arises.
And how I always reemerge afterwards
slightly out of breath and disheveled,
Just in time to offer comforting words.
I'm pretty good at playing the nerd card too.
I use obscure words to measure time and space.
I know that Commander Riker named his
non-existant son in the future Jean-Luc.
The First Green Lantern was not Hal Jordan,
and he didn't wear green.
He had a pretty badass black cape though.
But I like my leather coat better.
It usually provides all the cover I need.
My coat of arms really comes in handy
during the winter months.
If time travel were possible, maybe I could go back
and offer a more sufficient explanation than this,
but since it doesn't, this is what you get.
We all have our own little ways of saving the world,
or destroying the false ones accidentally created in our wake.
Realize this, time stops for nooone,
but we can stop for time.

-Bren