There's another world in side of me that you may never see...
Stuff...and stuff......and stuff.......Shit is pilin' up...I'm not sure where my head is anymore...I think I threw it out a long time ago and am just now realizing it...I'm having weird urges that I havent had in about a year to just jump on a frickin train and never come back...I'm not getting any closer to getting things resolved in my life. And what's goin on with me is noones fault but mine...Constant voices, constant feelings, constant incomprehension...
I have figured out a few thing though.
1. There is something big on the horizon, and it may greatly alter more than a few people when it does, but it's comin, and soon.
2. I need to graduate and get the hell out of this town. I'm getting closer to that now...I can almost taste it...I have my internship this summer that'll count towards one of my credits I need, and all three of the rest of the classes I need to grad. in December are being offered, and I know I can pass them. I have to...My only problem right now with school is that I have the sinking feeling that i'm not gonna have Financial Aid for the fall, and therefore wont be able to come back. I can't get any definate answers out of the people in Financial aid or Registration. They just keep sending me shit that says "There's a problem, but we're not gonna tell you how to fix it, so screw you..."
3. Before I try to change anything, I need to start being okay with me again, and lately I havent been. I haven't known how to fix it, and therefore have been avoiding it all together...And i'm still not sure what it is exactly that I do need to do for that to happen, but I do have a few clues that could get me started. This includes having several serious conversations with a select group of people I associate myself with, and wish to continue doing...
4. I need to seriously sit down and plot out my goals. Not just what I wanna be, and where, and why, but how I'm gonna do it. What exactly I need to do, and who I need to talk to in order to ensure that I get what want, and am happy with it.
Anyway, been trying to post this for a couple days actually, but Blogspot has been being a pain in the arse and wouldnt log me on until tonight.
Well, I'm done for now.
-Bren Out
Current Music: 3 Doors Down, When I'm Gone
Current TV Show: The Lone Gunmen
Current mood: Contemplative and slightly depressed
I have figured out a few thing though.
1. There is something big on the horizon, and it may greatly alter more than a few people when it does, but it's comin, and soon.
2. I need to graduate and get the hell out of this town. I'm getting closer to that now...I can almost taste it...I have my internship this summer that'll count towards one of my credits I need, and all three of the rest of the classes I need to grad. in December are being offered, and I know I can pass them. I have to...My only problem right now with school is that I have the sinking feeling that i'm not gonna have Financial Aid for the fall, and therefore wont be able to come back. I can't get any definate answers out of the people in Financial aid or Registration. They just keep sending me shit that says "There's a problem, but we're not gonna tell you how to fix it, so screw you..."
3. Before I try to change anything, I need to start being okay with me again, and lately I havent been. I haven't known how to fix it, and therefore have been avoiding it all together...And i'm still not sure what it is exactly that I do need to do for that to happen, but I do have a few clues that could get me started. This includes having several serious conversations with a select group of people I associate myself with, and wish to continue doing...
4. I need to seriously sit down and plot out my goals. Not just what I wanna be, and where, and why, but how I'm gonna do it. What exactly I need to do, and who I need to talk to in order to ensure that I get what want, and am happy with it.
Anyway, been trying to post this for a couple days actually, but Blogspot has been being a pain in the arse and wouldnt log me on until tonight.
Well, I'm done for now.
-Bren Out
Current Music: 3 Doors Down, When I'm Gone
Current TV Show: The Lone Gunmen
Current mood: Contemplative and slightly depressed
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